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Cover art by Christopher Leet
Bringing together health professional students with the homeless.
The Finding a Voice Team Ruth Margalit Director, Finding a Voice and The Service Learning Academy, UNMC College of Public Health Mike Saklar CEO, Siena/Francis House, Project Co-Director Rita Paskowitz Professional Storyteller, Project Facilitator Lisa Zulawski VISTA AmeriCorps, Project Photographer Jamie Odden VISTA AmeriCorps, Project Coordinator Christopher Leet AmeriCorps, Art Coordinator Shakira Davis AmeriCorps, Writing Assistant Kyle McAndrews AmeriCorps, Assistant Coordinator Nancy Farris UNMC College of Nursing, Student Director Laura Hansen MPH Student, UNMC College of Public Health Project Graduate Assistant
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3RHW6WDWHPHQW “Heart Sick” came about while recovering from alcoholism and chronic depression. I struggled with coming to terms with the fear and self-loathing that these conditions had created in my life. Although fear and self-loathing are the shadows in my heart, I have found that as I share this poem with others who are also in recovery, the “shadow” takes on new meanings with each of them.
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Cover art by Christopher Leet
Bringing together health professional students with the homeless.
The Finding a Voice Team Ruth Margalit Director, Finding a Voice and The Service Learning Academy, UNMC College of Public Health Mike Saklar CEO, Siena/Francis House, Project Co-Director Rita Paskowitz Professional Storyteller, Project Facilitator Lisa Zulawski VISTA AmeriCorps, Project Photographer Jamie Odden VISTA AmeriCorps, Project Coordinator Christopher Leet AmeriCorps, Art Coordinator Shakira Davis AmeriCorps, Writing Assistant Kyle McAndrews AmeriCorps, Assistant Coordinator Nancy Farris UNMC College of Nursing, Student Director Laura Hansen MPH Student, UNMC College of Public Health Project Graduate Assistant
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3RHW6WDWHPHQW “Heart Sick” came about while recovering from alcoholism and chronic depression. I struggled with coming to terms with the fear and self-loathing that these conditions had created in my life. Although fear and self-loathing are the shadows in my heart, I have found that as I share this poem with others who are also in recovery, the “shadow” takes on new meanings with each of them.
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